ABOUT The Amber School of Energetic Healings
At The Amber School of Energetic Healings we are dedicated to practice the Esseanian Healing Methods, Pleiadian Healings and Reiki. Here the Essenian Healing Workshops and Reiki Initiation Courses will be taught to you in the exact same way they were handed over from the Godly World through channelling with Lisa Lux and Henk Mulder, and in line with the teachings of the Academy of the 13 Essenian Arts of Healing. The Amber School of Energetic Healings was founded to support others on their healing path, providing them with the tools and mechanisms to cope with change and move forward in life consciously, during and after the Energetic transformation of Mother Earth and our global consciousness from the 3rd to the 5th Dimensional Energy.
ESSENIAN MASTER (TEACHING LEVEL 1), REIKI MASTER TEACHING, ESSENIAN HEALING JOURNEY HEALER LEVEL1, LEADER OF THE 1ST PLEIADIAN HEALING CIRCLE IN THE UK
My healing journey
This is the karma I have chosen to purify for myself in this lifetime.
School of hard knocks
I was born and raised in Lodz, Poland. My soul chose a family with a lot of emotional abuse and therefore at times control, verbal abuse, blaming, shaming and hate. A perfect environment to purify a heavy karma. In a country with strong catholic beliefs, I chose the best opportunity to experience judgment, misunderstanding, rejection, disappointment and feeling terribly alone.
From early on I was expected to train and work hard, present myself well, be competitive and achieve best results – my mother used to teach me that ‘money doesn’t grow on trees’. My mum always had expectations towards me and others, she knew what I should say and do, when and how, and most of the times it was the opposite to what felt true and right inside my heart. I could not possibly meet her expectations unless I was not true to myself – we liked different music, different clothes, I wanted to make my own decisions, she always knew it all best. Often I was swinging between having to stand up for myself in some kind of meaningful, strong, extreme way or to do as I was told and suffer inside. It was a perfect opportunity to become aware of one of my strong patterns I was born with – one of a victim, and one of very few things me and my mum had in common. Yes, my mum was coming across as a very strong character, but deep inside she was hurting very much – putting herself in situations where she was blaming others for her disappointments and hurt.
Sometimes my mum used to speak in such way I felt intimidated, questioned and judged. Many times it felt like she was trying to catch me on something by asking misleading questions. I felt there was never a right or a good enough answer for her, either what I said or the way I was saying things, was criticised later. Many times I felt like I would be killed when I speak up my truth. I experienced complete lack of trust, anger that I could not do things my way and guilt if I did it anyway – back then I could not understand how it was possible that my friends had such open-minded, supportive and understanding parents and I had to fight mines. I knew my pockets would be checked when I leave coat at home, I felt I was always suspected of the worst, accused of having sneaky intentions or second agenda.
I was 25 years old when I moved out, this was the reality for many young people in Poland, because they couldn’t afford living on their own. For those 25 years I heard: ‘in your house you will be able to do what you want, this is my house, you do as I say’ – I never felt really at home. Back then we were just blaming, suspecting and resenting each other at times, feeling hurt and victimised, we were not aware of karma or patterns that we have chosen for ourselves before we came to Earth.
My mother has the strong pattern of controlling others – what they do, how they do it, when and what they think, and she was always very judgmental – she used to say: ‘I only say things the way they are’, of course this was all truth to her and reflecting her own patterns, but I didn’t know that back then, and to some degree I copied some of her patterns. I remember my mum was telling me my dad was never around, never interested in spending time with me when I was little, and all the other things she was blaming him for and I took that pattern on, I only realised that many years later. I realised I spent most of my life blaming my dad for the things my mother used to say. My dad could never understand what he did wrong…Now I can see clearly that the three of us had a very strong karma to purify and it makes sense to me now that we have arranged to purify it like this. My sister is 4 years younger, she was born to the same parents, yet she was able to do much more that I was allowed to, our mother was not so eager to control her and she had a good and healthy relationship with our father! – of course I could never comprehend why that was, I was only able to act out my patterns and those I took on from my mum, and blaming our mum for letting her off. Now I can see I have completely given my authority away to my mum and others.
Odd and outside the norm
Growing up I was rebelling against my family, school, society, religion, beliefs and rules through my behaviour and clothes. Although it wasn’t clear at the time, a desire to find myself, know myself, know who I was and breaking free from what was imposed on me (at least partly) drove me to harming my body also through piercings and tattoo. I felt I couldn’t fit in the way it was expected of me, I was not good enough.
When I was 16 I met new ‘friends’ and we teamed up against the whole world. Through my first relationship I experienced more judgment, exclusion and control than ever before. The new environment was one of addictions, violence and fear, and although I was never hurt physically myself, what I observed made me want to help others, create better opportunities in the future. – that was my karmic pattern of a saviour becoming visible along with ‘know it all’ pattern I took on from my mum. I knew what the problem was and I had to find the solution and then make it happen by influencing others to follow through. Unfortunately, things didn’t go well, I realised people didn’t want to change, I felt second best, I felt that my boyfriend’s addiction was “more important than me’ – again the karmic pattern of a victim came to the surface. But I couldn’t understand this back then, I was blaming my boyfriend, his friends and parents and eventually we split up.
Doing best to fit in
I felt I had no control over my life, my mother used to say ‘what do you know, when you will be my age, you will know’ – and she never stopped saying this, now I understand it’s a karmic pattern. She used to teach me ‘humility gets you everywhere’ with an implication to keep my mouth shut because I might need something from people later, so it made sense not to argue with them, even if it felt dishonest. And so I took these patterns on as I was growing up, trying to find my ways around and just get by with what I needed. I felt like my identity, power, authority and the spirit to fight for myself were fading more and more. I was tired.
Many times I felt attacked and criticised, even if people didn’t mean to do that – in my head I knew already I wasn’t good enough, I would be blamed and criticised. Eventually I just wanted to disappear to feel safe. I thought who I was in myself was never enough, so I trained well in one of my gifts – drawing skills. And I started hiding behind my perfect beautiful drawings, that were good enough skills-wise. But they were never good enough for me, I always had to do more, achieve more, draw more, meet more people to show my works, build my drawing artist profile, finally be somebody in this life…that was a mask, an identity I built so well, I became addicted to it. I could not live without drawing, in my head drawing was all I was and therefore it had to be perfect and I had to keep going, keep going, keep going. Working myself to death to receive respect and recognition was another pattern I had.
I came to UK with my second boyfriend, we got engaged but we broke up few years later. He seemed to be different to boys I had known until then. He was looking ‘normal’, he was polite, and my mum liked him, which was such a relief after all these years of fighting for the right to meet the people I wanted. What I didn’t realize was that he also had negative patterns similar to those of my first boyfriend – he was also addicted – to alcohol, cigarettes, smoking marijuana, TV and computer games. Again I was trying to get somewhere, this time to get a better job, more money, bigger flat, a baby… Again I felt like the only one in the relationship really making effort, leading, teaching, influencing and … not getting enough in return. Slowly I began to realize that there is also mental abuse and I myself had also brought into that relationship so many negative patterns that I had copied from my mother. It took me good few years to realize all this. Another perfect opportunity to become aware of the karmic patterns of a saviour falling back to a victim role.
Searching for new direction
After we split up I began to break free from my traditional background and started exploring art and the healing work. I tried a wide range of therapies and spent a fortune seeking answers, desperate to be able to make my life more bearable, to finally find myself and know why I am here. My work in the hospital, a bureaucratic corporate organisation, was making me feel tired and frustrated. Again I was feeling not good enough, almost every day. At some point I was procrastinating, hanging on until the situation became unbearable and I had no other choice than to say ‘no’ – always looking for a reasonable excuse, because a simple ‘no’ from me wouldn’t be enough. I was feeling afraid, wouldn’t trust people and most of the times I just couldn’t stand up for myself. I lost my boundaries. Papers were piling up and I was not able to say ‘no’ to new requests and more work to do. I was working myself to death to please others, expecting gratitude, which I could not get because of my pattern of a victim! This situation was making me feel unhappy, disappointed, feeling not appreciated and suffering a lot. I cannot imagine how much my mum had been suffering throughout her life having all these patterns, not even being aware of them…
As I was reading in my free time about the limiting thought and belief patterns I started seeing my work situation as an indication of my patterns rather than people treating me unfairly and blaming me when I missed deadlines. And as I was going along I was looking into myself more and more and my awareness started to grow. I tried to stop blaming others and take my authority back, making small changes, step by step, wherever was possible. One day I realised I have learned and experienced all I could there, I had no resentment towards anyone any more, and I decided to resign and move on to holistic healing full time. I had no financial support, no savings, and like everyone, bills to pay. But I had a deep trust that I would find the way and a strong feeling that the universe was looking after me, sending me signs…
When I first got into spiritual community I was trying to feel this gratitude all spiritual people were talking about – gratitude for food, for the opportunity to meet new people, for the conversations I was having. They were saying ‘love yourself’ – and I thought…’how can I love myself if I don’t know who I am?’ And ultimately it all just didn’t feel genuine – there was something underneath deep inside me, something I couldn’t reach and address through any of the holistic healings. Yes, few things have changed, but it was more like peeling off layers – the core reason for my sorrow was there, no matter how hard I tried to let it go. Every time I got close to it, I felt like a wall raising in front of me and I froze, I couldn’t do anything. And often it felt easier to just pretend it’s not there, until next time. So even in this period I was still purifying heavy pieces of my karma.
Yoga helped me to start opening up, chakra cleaning and balancing only got me as far as my issues allowed – to be honest I didn’t feel I had chakras energy system at all. I trained in Bio Energy Healing, Bach Flower Remedies, Pranic Healing, Theta Healing, Metatronic Healing, Sekhem, Quantum Touch and few other – I had the opportunity to experience each of these healing techniques on myself and all of them only always worked as far as my issues allowed – the way placebo works. Some of them lost the humble, respectful way Master Usui taught his Masters – that people are only channels for the Universal Life Healing Energy. Some were offering simple and fast attunements or advising that we don’t even need to be initiated…this is a modern-day spiritual phenomenon that I found very misleading and sometimes even harmful. When we don’t really know from the bottom of the heart that we ARE God’s Sparks, we don’t treat ourselves and each other in such way, we don’t think twice before performing an energy therapy – whether it might harm or if it is of a real value to another person. We don’t realize the changes we might create in other person’t energy field, because how could we possibly know that if we are operating on the physical level with the ego? And often we are not aware of the karma responsibility that comes with everything we do – we look for excuses, just like a bad workman always blames his tools or other people.
For me there was never a question about doing more and more for my own healing. I spent most of my money on the holistic courses, books, workshops, I did everything I could to get better. Instinctively I knew this was the right path, and that there is something that really works, but throughout the years some of the knowledge and the way it was correctly practices, was partially lost, hidden, forgotten or manipulated. And so I kept searching like most people do, we just get confused along the way thinking we are adding up these therapies to our ‘toolbox’ – but on the Soul level we have not yet found that which can really help us purify, learn and heal.
Most of the holistic trainings teaches that as therapists we need to feel we deserve the money for what we do, that we need to allow ourselves to receive the money – the more we think we deserve, the more we charge. We are inspired to have a profitable business, that just happens to be focused on healing – I’ve noticed how some people got into holistic community to heal themselves and others and as they were going along they shifted their perspectives towards comfortable life… Many times I felt manipulated, like a source of income. I did what they said to clear my limiting beliefs about not deserving money, beliefs they said were coming from other lives, I even did a past life regression session. It didn’t work, it couldn’t work because it still did’t feel genuine. As a sales person, working in a corporate organisation, closely with the people in charge of the business, I knew how the “billionaire’s brain” works. And that was giving me a sense of a clash – on one side I was learning to help others, (still from the saviour point of view – purifying my heavy piece of karma) on the other side I was told to be profitable. Making profit on another person coming for help didn’t feel genuine and I felt it was the wrong reason to practice and it wasn’t the same to me as accepting a fair payment for the value for my effort, love and work.
Finding the answers
But in between that, in all kinds of directions the Essenes were brought to my attention through books and internet. One day I was doing some kind of research on the internet, the page of the Academy of the 13 Essenian Arts of Healing came up and I got in touch with the founder, Lisa Lux. Lisa and her complementary soul Henk Mulder, channelled with Jesus and Mary Magdalene, their Guides, and it was offered to me that I could do a real Reiki Master training and become an Essenian Master Teaching because I came to Earth with this mission and the gift of a very strong Power of the Mind. Lisa also explained to me that before I came to Earth I was offered to wash out big karma created through wrong choices in other lives, and becoming an Essenian Master means to do good this time for myself and through this to others.
When I met my teacher Lisa Lux, I was quiet, reserved, distant and focused on my holistic career doing healing as a job. I told her I didn’t see much point in talking unless we have a particular subject to discuss, otherwise it’s just talking for the sake of it – I didn’t see much point in that, words meant very little to me then. I didn’t eat much, didn’t see much point in ‘stuffing’ myself. I haven’t watched TV or a movie for years, I’ve been convinced it’s too much stimulation. Lisa wanted to talk, she suggested that I eat more, she invited me to watch movies, play cards, spend some time together…and I just wanted to be left alone in my own space and get on with that training. I felt like she was pushing my buttons, one by one, making me feel really uncomfortable. It felt that who I was and all I was, was all wrong, and that really made me angry. It felt like criticism and I felt attacked – I thought the qualities of my personality (my patterns) that I protected so much, was making me unique and I was proud of them! I was wrong. We did a lot of self-reflection to uncover the negative patterns, that I had to look at myself later when I came back home, and address with the help of the Essenian Mental Healing and Reiki – just the way I was taught to do with Essenian clients. We cannot demand healing without wanting to really put in a conscious effort ourselves – in changing our negative patterns. This is one of the lessons Master Usui gave us in Reiki Principles.
Those three weeks I spent in France on the first part of my training to become a 5th dimensional Essenian Healer and later and Essenian Master (Teaching) were the biggest challenge of my life and the toughest time I’ve ever had. That time completely transformed my life.
I went to France thinking I was a Reiki Master (initiated on a distance), Lisa made me aware, that distant initiations can not work, and that the symbols and the way to use Reiki I was previously taught – were unfortunately incorrect, she initiated me to Reiki Master (Teaching). That was the moment when I felt Reiki first time – I have no other words to say this. I felt the high pure presence of Reiki that is a state of being and a way of living, a pure connection with the highest Source, and I felt honoured to be initiated in such way. It made me feel so grateful that this way of passing Reiki was preserved on Earth for so many years and that I could later pass it on to my students as a very special, holy moment too. The esoteric knowledge became a deep knowing and understanding of who I am and how does it feel to be that what we call a God’s Spark – that is so different from knowing it on an intellectual level, because intellectually it has no meaning and therefore very little value, the knowing deep inside your heart changes everything.
Never alone again
Part of the Essenian Master Training is meeting the appointed Essenian Guide. Again, meeting a Guide was something I have done before, now the difference is that before I didn’t feel any connection with the Being that was appearing in the meditation. In France I’ve learned how to communicate with my Essenian Guide, I was given his name and I could really feel his presence physically in my body – it is one of the things, which when you experience on yourself, you just know it, you trust your feelings and sensations. That gentle male energy, that was appointed to me as my Essenian Guide was once incarnated as Jacobus. The beautiful thing is, that he has been so busy for months and months before he pointed me in Lisa’s direction…The way the Guides work, is that they encapsulate the messages in things that are a part of our daily life, it could be a word in a book, an internet site, a song, somebody saying something. And these things at some point suddenly stand out to us…because on the energy level there is a message, a meaning related to us personally. This is called synchronicity. And so Jacobus was pointing me first towards…lucky clovers for couple of months. And it made be believe that I was lucky. Then I started seeing hearts – as puddles, holes in the pavement, leaves, vegetables, shapes and patterns. With the hearts the number 11 and 2 were appearing all the time. And it felt like… the two in love, I think what he was doing was very sweet, of course back then I didn’t know what it was and where it was coming from and for what purpose, but it felt kind and it was making me confident that I was following the right direction. Once we did the Guide encounter, and I felt his presence, the deep feeling of loneliness that was present throughout my whole life, started vanishing. I started to feel safe, knowing I’m never alone and that I’m in good hands.
I had the opportunity to experience the Essenian Healing on myself, after it’s been channelled and indicated that I need a specific healing at that point in time. Through self-reflection I realised that deep inside I just felt sorrow, so painful I pretended it wasn’t there. And at that point I decided to really look it in the eye one last time only to say ‘good bye’ – that was the Essenian Disharmony Healing for me. How it worked? We realised the way my disharmony was showing up in my life, was the coldness I was feeling for many, many years. I was cold physically…and emotionally too.
Everything feels so different now
Understanding that karma was my choice and not a punishment, and feeling transformed by the Essenian Disharmony Healing, it became clear to me why I have chosen this kind of life path for myself, and that the Essenian Master (Teaching) training is a part of my karma purification and learning process. I now have a clear understanding of my job on Earth. I enjoy every day feeling warm, tasting the food, being able to talk to people openly. And I know I’m never alone again, my Guide is always with me. When I now look at my pictures from before I started my Essenian Healing training and now, I can see that I managed to transform my whole appearance through taking the healings, walking my path.
Over the years I’ve trained in most of the treatments that I found not effective enough, didn’t feel genuine and simply were not meant for me to practice but to experience, that’s all. So now I’m a Reiki Master (Teaching) and an Essenian Healer in training to become an Essenian Master (Teaching). That’s why The Amber School of Energetic Healings was born – a school offering a real opportunity to people who choose to make conscious and sustainable changes in their lives and health.
Katarzyna has been involved in the Holistic Healing field since she felt the inner calling to explore the energy work. She left her job in the NHS, and she qualified in over 12 different energy healing techniques, to settle down for the ones that innerly felt right for her and let her use her unique gift of a very strong Power of the Mind, she was born with. Katarzyna trained and certified in France, at the Academy of the 13 Essenian Arts of Healing, with the founder – highly clear-knowing spiritual teacher Lisa Lux. Katarzyna’s difficult personal and working life experiences have provided the insight and understanding of our human life experience – the karma each of us has chosen before being born on earth again – to bring back into balance, what we have damaged in other lives through our wrong choices. Under the guidance and teachings of Lisa, she has learned to communicate energetically with her Essenian Guide, dedicated her life to become a pure and conscious channel, and she consciously started her karma purification process by becoming a 5th Dimensional Essenian Master and supporting others on their healing path, providing them with the tools and mechanisms to cope with change and move forward in life consciously.
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